oh insanity

is it after me?

it just me against the world

how many times i need to struggle

to feel warm again

i am sorry

i have to fight this demon inside me

and you're keeping me sane

image EP2, GF1 Lumix 20mm f1.7 pancake lens by dar

fast forwarding mode

"run after a lightwave with the speed of light, you could have a wave arrangement which is completely independent of time"

sometimes, i wish we could stop the time
and
sometimes, i wish it could be fast forwarded

images taken with Minolta CLE by sweetheart - laughter from heart

i-nspired

what a wonderful life :)

how blue

it feels like something is pressing on my chest.

that i have to push myself so hard

i can not stop but to keep breathing

let this over soon.

image EP2, GF1 Lumix 20mm f1.7 pancake lens by self - the lovely flying giraffe

good morning, sunshine

always, again

that's what i want to see every morning, for the rest of my life

wholly unsayable

can you feel what i am feeling...

image EP2, GF1 Lumix 20mm f1.7 pancake lens by dar

walk beside me

you want to be with them whom share your laughter
and not laugh at you
don't judge, don't analyse
you know you are safe with them

i am blessed
we have a choice

images taken by sweetheart

to be frank

to be frank with you
sometimes, i just want to hide and cry

and next moment, i forget why

image EP2, GF1 Lumix 20mm f1.7 pancake lens by dar

the unwritten law of life; hofstadter's law

finally my first self-developed black and white film. it was such an enjoyable experience. for that half an hour i was fully-focused, visualizing what the result will be.

and here you go, unedited shots ;

an old lady who lives in a kelong (offshore platform built predominantly with wood), sitting by the sea, looking laid-back and peaceful.

young man, just returned from his fishing trip

well, the credit goes to mentor sweetheart.

at this stage of life, i start to believe in the ironic unwritten law of life ;
things will always takes longer than you expect, even when you take into account hofstadter's law

perhaps i should stretch my patience a little bit more. if that is life. i should.

images taken with hexarRF, leica summarit 50 mm f1.5, Tmax 400 b&w film by self

scattered toward every wind

heaven, if you do really exist. please, i am in need of direction.
expectation is killing me, sadness is burying me.
i can't help myself.


image EP2, GF1 Lumix 20mm f1.7 pancake lens by dar

the castle built in the air

It has been a while since I left any trace here. My two months term break is coming to the end soon and seriously, I don't want to imagine what it is going to be the next three months; chaotic is for sure.

I'm glad I made it once again. For all the sleepless nights and midnight oils, the hard-works just somehow paid off and all become worthwhile. It says; "you go on".


Well, the 9 to 6 is still my priority. I still love my job but in need of some breakthrough. Please, end this so called waiting game. I want to walk further.

So what about the castles built in the air, if we can put some foundations under them.

image EP2, GF1 Lumix 20mm f1.7 pancake lens by self

same same but different

Benjamin (David Kross), a German high school student, is a backpacker on his first major tour. In a nightclub at Phnom Penh, he meets the young local, Sreykeo (played by Apinya Sakuljaroensuk), and he falls in love with her. Ben opts for this love, even though Sreykeo turns out to be HIV positive and seems to be a prostitute. It is based on the true history of Sreykeo Sorvan and Benjamin Prüfer.

in singapore, 8th of may gv vivocity.

turn me off

I need a button to turn me off, shut me down
I am tired, but it keeps running

image EP2, GF1 Lumix 20mm f1.7 pancake lens by dar

my reality and the dream

for one more time, the dream survives

image EP2, GF1 Lumix 20mm f1.7 pancake lens by dar

if i walk, would you run

If i walk, would you run?
If i stop, would you come?
If i say you're the one, would you believe me?
If i ask you to stay, would you show me the way?
Tell me what to say so you don't leave me.
The world is catching up to you
While you're running away to chase your dream
It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
And maybe i'm not ready

But I'll try for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
We've been hiding enough

If i walk would you run
If i stop would you come
If i say you're the one would you believe me

disgusted

I am lost to the point of disgust.

the islands and bays

it's a duper hot sun and i feel like a refugee. we transfer from islands to islands.
we see fish in close-up view and we feed the monkeys

Phuket; Phiphi Islands, Loh Samah Bay, Pileh Cove, Viking Cove, Phiphi Don, Yong Kasem, Khai Nok Island, 2nd day

image EP2, GF1 Lumix 20mm f1.7 pancake lens

the sun is mad while we are enjoying ourselves

Phuket, Patong beach, 1st day

images by EP2, Canon LTM 35mm 1.5 lens by us

a series of unfortunate events

define my day by little-strangers dictionary;

my day [mahy; dey]

–noun

1. the interval of light between two successive nights; the time between sunrise and sunset: which marks only by a series of unfortunate events :(

if i wait patiently, will the rainbows arrive again?

image EP2, GF1 Lumix 20mm f1.7 pancake lens by self

LES TROMPE-L’ŒIL DE CHANEL

the skin art is a Peter Philips drawing, a chanel signs of identification
have you checked out Chanel SS10 temporary tattoo?

and there is one here... ♥

that rainbow feeling

Yay! Project A submitted + mid term test down = I'm feeling rainbow

anyway, hulu girl if you're reading this :) come back soon, we miss you!


the bad news is the doctor said I am having low blood pressure and well, I don't really know how to deal with it and I am guessing, it is temporary. it will be.

and when will it be my turn to run into her ? you, lucky yan!

good night, my little strangers...

amour propre

i wound my own vanity
i could not see you

how long have i waited
and
how long have you been waiting

image Nomo LCA+ by dar

see you, hear you, feel you

speak a language that i understand

if there is such, i will speak yours

image lca+ by self

a women's pain

do you think i can wake up at 6 am to pack my room tomorrow ?
i am in pain, the-women-kind-of-pain. intolerable. i want to be asleep now.
and room is still in a mess



image RICOH GX200 by hulu girl

one stop after another

one stop after another,

12.10 am is the time when i can slow down and have a little time for myself, yet in another 10 mins time, i am going to be asleep. this is how precious time is.

today i am missing my sweetheart, so much.

image LCA+ by self

sadness is a wall between two gardens

"feelings of worth can flourish only in an atmospehre where individual differences are appreciated, mistakes are tolerated, communication is open, and rules are flexible - the kind of atmosphere that is found in a nurturing family"

virginia satir, phychologist, educator 1916-1988


image CANON IXUS 85, colour accent by self

hi heels

whoopee, finally arrived, hi heels!

image Canon Ixus 100 by self

if you rescue me

If you rescue me,
I'll be your friend forever,
Let me in your bed,
I'll keep you warm in winter,
All the kitties are playing
and they're having such fun,
I wish it could happen to me,
But if you rescue me,
I'll never have to be alone again.
Oh the cars drive so fast
and the people are mean,
and sometimes it's hard to find food,
let me into your room,
I'll keep you warm and amused,
all the things we can do in the rain
If you rescue me,
I'll be your friend forever,
Let me in your bed,
I'll keep you warm in winter,
Oh someday I know
someone will look into my eyes
and say, "Hello, you're my very special kitten,"
So if you rescue me,
I'll never have to be alone again
I'll never have to be alone again
I'll never have to be alone again

experience is personal

A totally dreadful day to class, was dragging my feet and luckily, i managed to! Dr. Sheh made MR most interesting lesson ever; i enjoyed the laughter and brain cracking session. I had my 5 hours (yes, +2 hours journey) well spent but was really exhausted and not too receptive towards the end. It's not easy to be a parttime student with a full time job. 3 lessons a week can kill, seriously. I am trying very hard, doing my best.

And I am keeping my finger crossed, Taiwan in April! please.

lastly, penny of your thoughts (shared by Dr.Sheh) :
experience is personal, it's the moment to moment sensory awareness of internal and external events.
Do you know that even though we see, hear, smell and touch the same but it might be a totally different experience? how strange, there is something we can't share but to experience it ourselves.

ps. image Ricoh GRDIII - by self

ps. mommy, i love you

latest acquisition, however soon it will no longer be mine

mommy, now i know i love you more than a timeless classic

whoopee, hair is growing longer and longer :)

image Canon Ixus 100 by self

confession of a peanut brain

i know, i know, i know

all nags, please go on detention. hush!

I will be better and better, stronger and stronger

ps. raeyun, where have you gone? am waiting for your new address. beep.

香港

j u n e 2 0 0 9

1,2,3... will i be there again this year ?